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| Tuesday, July 25th, 2006 | | Jul 25 06 ` 10 36 pm |
About me.
Okay, for those who read this that know me well..*Erin* bear with me. I found a survey, and I love taking them. So I am going to copy it in here so ya'll can learn something about me! If you have any other fun surveys send them along. I love taking them. Name: Real name is Jaclyn, but I go by Jackie Birthdate: March 20th Birthplace: Cleveland, Oh. Eye Color: Brown Hair Color: brown Height: about 5 ' 5 Weight: I'm not actually sure. Somewhere around 120. That's the average. Piercings: ears and I wish I was tan enough to peirce my belly button but I'm very pale and it would look dumb. Tatoos: Hell no. Overused Phraze: oh my god,crappit, there isn't a snowball's chance in hell FAVORITES Food: Cheese Cake Candy: Nerds Number: 8 Color: Blue Animal: dogs Drink: Grape Soda from a can, or Izzie's Blue Berry soda. Delicious and actually healthy for you!! Alcohol Drink: I wouldn't know. All I've ever had is a sip of Mikes Hard Lemonade and like a glass and a half of Champein Bagel: Asiago Cheese from Panera Letter: umm...J? Body Part on Opposite sex: Well, hair is not a body part so.. Arms This or That Pepsi or Coke: coke McDonalds or BurgerKing: I'd rather not, cause they both make me sick but Mcdonalds. I'm a sucker for their food. Strawberry or Watermelon: Hardest Question yet.. Strawberry Hot tea or Ice tea: hot tea Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla i guess Hot Chocolate or Coffee: Hot Chocolate Kiss or Hug: Hugs but I suppose a kiss from a boyfriend would be nice Dog or Cat: dog Rap or Punk: rap Summer or Winter: Summer Scary Movies or Funny Movies: Funny movies Love or Money: love YOUR... Bedtime: depends. Around 11:00 on a school day. Hey, I like my sleep!! Most Missed Memory: living on my old street playing with my best friend everyday and never getting sick of her Best phyiscal feature: umm geez. I really don't know. I guess... my Shoulders? First Thought Waking Up: who am I going to see today? &..39;Goal for this year:' Go on a date Best Friends: You know who you are Weakness: shoes, and coats. Fears: Bugs, Going under water, the law and order voice. Heritage: Russian,Polish, Chechloslovakian, American obviously. HAVE YOU... Ever Drank: only at a pre-wedding thing. Ever Smoked: ewww no Pot: no Ever been Drunk: no Ever been beaten up: no Ever beaten someone up: yes (chill, it was only my brother) Ever Skinny Dipped: no IN A GUY/GIRL Favorite Eye Color: ummm doesn't really matter Favorite Hair Color: brown or black Short or Long: in between Height: ummm anythin thats taller then me Style: casual, laid back, but clean Looks or Personality: personality but i have to b atracted to him Hot or Cute cute Drugs and Alcohol: neither Muscular or Really Skinny: Kinda on the skinny side. Muscles gross me out sometimes RANDOMS Number of Regrets in the Past: Well, none if all my mistakes lead me to where I am today. Alot if it could have been better. What country do you want to Visit: China How do you want to Die: doing something memorable and nobel. Been to the Mall Lately: yep Do you like Thunderstorms: yes Get along with your Parents: most of the time Health Freak: umm, I kinda wish I was Do you think your Attractive: no Believe in Yourself: unless it's my pop culture knowledge, then not normally. Want to go to College: very much Do you Smoke: unless you mean I'm smokin.. then no. wow corny and not true. Do you Drink: not in the way you are insinuating but I need to stay alive. Shower Daily: every other day. Showering daily is bad for your hair. plus, natural oil is good for you. just don't be gross. Been in Love: unfourtunatly, it's never been reciprocated. Do you Sing: by myself hell yeah! Want to get Married: hell yea Do you want Children: a few Have your future kids names planned out: yes. Emma, Samantha, and Cody or Cory. Age you wanna lose your Virginity: preferably not old. Hate anyone: don't we alljust a little? Current Mood:  exhausted |
| Friday, July 21st, 2006 | | Jul 21 06 ` 1 08 pm |
I'm Baaack
Okay, well, you know how I usually only write when I'm really pissed off? Well, I am proabably still going to do that, but Erin inspired me to put on some pictures of my trip with her to new york! So, if you don't think mine are enough, see her's. I might be in some becasue i am not putting in the really bad pic of me. so here we go. Current Mood:  amused |
| Sunday, March 19th, 2006 | | Mar 19 06 ` 10 39 am |
Happy birthday to me?
Hi again. It's sunday, the day before an unfoutunate monday birthday for me. I will be 17 this year, and compared to last year's birthday festivities this will be a very insignificant one. Last year I got gift from people I usually don't get gifts from, my friends and I went out to dinner, and I went to a fancy brunch with my family. This year there are no plans. My grandparents aren't comming home for another week, so i'm not getting any gifts on my actual birthday unless my friends surprise me or something, I don't host parties, and since it's not a huge birthday I decided that going to dinner wasn't to big a deal. I am going skating with my friends next saturday, to kinda celebrate but it won't really be about me since Katie ( a new girl in our little group that I'm not super close with) has her birthday the day after mine, plus this was just becasue we couldn't go ice skating with everyone 2 weeks ago like we wanted too. Anyway, I haven't gotten any gifts yet, my brother's not really planning to get me anything becasue he would rather spend his money on a video game that he'll be done with in a day. (That has actually happened before). I don't wanna sound really gifty but I just want my birthday to actually mean a little bit of something. It only comes once a year. I guess this birthday is more about me being happy for myself becasue now I can watch any rated R movie I want without m mom harping on me. But that dosn't mean she won't be bothing me to get a job, study for sats, and acts and everything else I haven't done to her perfection. So, happy birthday to me! Hopefully i'll get that digital camera I wanted, probably not but I can dream right? After all tomorrow is my birthday. Current Mood:  apathetic |
| Sunday, March 12th, 2006 | | Mar 12 06 ` 12 01 pm |
Starting over
Sorry I haven't written in a really long time. I just haven't had a chance to catch my breath with all my problems going on. I always thought high school would be fun, and being a teenager was this world of parties and boyfriends. If only I knew how wrong I was. There are no parties, unless your extremely popular and enjoy drinking and smoking god knows what. And there are no boyfriends unless you flirt heavily, and you school is well endowed with likeable boys which mine is not. I'm sure I've mentioned my zillions of problems. Namley, (my obviouse lack of spelling)having no license, my boring friends (whom I love but I have to admit, there boring sometimes), not having a boyfriend,my jerk of a little brother and over all lack of school smarts. So, I'm terrible at math, have no wheels and really can't find a reason as to why I'm putting up with it all. I am supposed to be searching for colleges to visit where I know all I' ever going to be doing there is visit. I woke up in a really good mood today untill my mom woke up that is. First things first, she mentions she had this dream that I had my licence and was really happy. (Nice mom, way to make me actually happy, NOT) but I put it in stride, untill she mentioned the college stuff. I get it, I need to look some up. But the only one I know I even have a percent of a chance with is Jhonson and Wales. Other then that it's a toss up. She's in deniel thinking I have these good grades, and while they aren't all f's or anything, I'll be fourtunate to get into a state school. I try hard in school it just never pays off. So, I mention this and she goes into her usual jag of You'll get in, I'm sick of you thinking like that, I don't want to talk about it anymore. ( always has those 2 lines in every mention of college) I wish someone would just hear me out, let me talk about my problems for once without just blowing me off once they get sick of hearing it. Whcih is why I'l mention once again, if you have a problem I'm all ears. I unlike some people like helping other out in their time of emotional need. So, I made the list for her and she got all mad and started yelling at me and I cracked. I just can't take it anymore. I went to my room and just decided being bymyself is the only way I can keep some of my sanity. It's just always the same with her.I actually considered taking a long walk bymyself and not telling her. Just letting her wait untill she figured out I was gone and started feeling like a bad person for not caring, but using my better judgement I realized that I would probably be in more trouble then when this all started. I just wish I could just stat over again. Like a tv show almost with a new cast of people to talk to and a new setting away from Ohio and it's perpetually grey skies. I love my family most of the time, but it would be nice if only for a little while not to have a dad who obviously likes my little brother the best, a nagging pessemisitc mom, a sister that lives far away, and a jerk for a little brother, and friends that were actually available sometimes and a best friend who didn't have such wacked out morals I could scream. Well, here's to hoping. In the mean time, I think I'm going to go get some cheesecake icecream and just wollow in my depressing life untill depserate housewives is on. Current Mood: depressed |
| Sunday, February 5th, 2006 | | Feb 5 06 ` 11 03 am |
Howdy yall
WEll, not much has changed since my last entry. I still don't have my licenesebut I did redo my temps and I'm trying as hard as I can to get this done inbetween the days that it's snowing. I just saw Walk the line yesterday finalls. I recommend it for people who either liked Ray or really like Johnny cash. The movie has a lot of the same qualities as ray except no flash backs inbetween things and no water phobia. It's good. Reese Witherspoon is the best part though. She's amazing. Anyway, Valentines day is upon us and I just want to wish you all a happy one. Even if you don't have a boyfriend which I currently don't get together with your friends so your not alone and buy a lot of chocolate. It can be one of the most romantic holidays and one of the most depressing. New to Erin... Bryan got back together with his whore. There I said it. She is a Whore. Anyway, I wanted to post a word of advice to you all from my experience. Wear your Retainers and your Rubber bands if you have braces. For the love of god just do it!!!!!!!!!! I went to my dentist yesterday and (I hated these people already mind you) and she told me I couldn't get bonding because I needed braces again ( I have had them 3 times already. I have pretty bad teeth, or at least I used to. There not ugly, just..complicated.)Well, my dentist can go rot becasue my ortho gave up on me for being a horrible patient. So, my dentist almost made me cry so that's right everyone she's fired! She didn't realize that I hold more power over my doctors then she thinks. My mouth, my complaints and a little bit of actual crying and my mom is taking me back to the dentist that she goes to!! Yay for standing up for yourself!!! But please do what your told. I am an idiot and forgot my retainers and stuff a lot and my jaw isn't the way it should be i guess. So, that;s the lesson for you. don't be a jackie or your own worst enemy like I am. The more I think about it, I really must hate myself to do the stupid things I do. Oh well. Bye all!! Have a nice day! Current Mood: calm |
| Saturday, January 14th, 2006 | | Jan 14 06 ` 3 09 pm |
From the bottom of my heart thank you.
Wow, when Erin told me to do a live journal, I was a little skeptical. I thought, would I use it? would people read it? Then I just figured I would use it to express my feelings and have people hear them if they wanted to. Well, These past few weeks it has really halped me sort out my problems with my math class, finals, and all my inner thoughts about our Government and life in general. So, Thanks. To those who did read Thank you. Even if you didn't comment, i hope you at least started thinking. My thoughts aren't all that deep but a lot of people don't agree with me and I'm not asking you to. Just glad that you could open your mind to all posibilities and how other people feel. Sometimes you are just lucky in the ways of school and stuff, so your blinded to how other people feel that struggle. You start to agree with the government and your parents on everything becasue that's what's worked for you. And iin that case, fine congrats to you. But, I am a firm believer in questioning everything if only just a little. You can follow them, even if you don't agree, you just don't have to believe it. Anyway, to those that did comment, Thanks. I don't know all of you but they really made my smile, and especially to those in Florida that I havn't had the oppurtunity to meet, I hope I do. If you all have any questions for me about anything, I would be totaly willing to give a little insight or ask someone who can. But, you also have Erin in your own backyard and she's pretty insightful herself. love ya Erin! Thanks again! Cya around. Current Mood: accomplished |
| Friday, January 13th, 2006 | | Jan 13 06 ` 3 44 pm |
Finally blessed weekend!
Well, it's the weekened if you can call it that. I have studying to do. Yesterday was my first final-English. Wasn't hard but I was late so, I was mad at myself.Then To celebrate it being over I went for ice cream with some friends, the same friends I'm hanging out with tonight. We also watched school of rock which is mine, but my one friend Stacie hadn't seen it yet. Today, I had to clean my room which was a great undertaking. My mom promised me movie tickets if I got the job done. Wel, it's as clean as it ever has been so, I'm excited to go see Tristan and Isold tonight!! Melanie also came over and we worked on chem together for our final. well, I probably won't update till finals are over on wensday! Wish me luck!! I have thursday and friday off next week so it will be a sweet release from all my final troubles. Toodles! Oh, and hope all you in florida did well on your finals!! Current Mood:  contemplative |
| Thursday, January 12th, 2006 | | Jan 12 06 ` 5 54 pm |
FINALS(sent to erin from me)
Yeah senior year is supposed to be the best. But who knows. I'm sure I'll find a reason to hate it too. It will be better if you move here though. Midterms are crazy for 8th grade. I had to take finals at the end of the year in 8th grade but they only counted for a little bit. It's just dumb. Who can retain all that info?? Plus, the goal is to see how much you remembered through the year right? Then why do they let us study?? wouldn't that be considered cheating?? They encourage us to study for something they are chekcing to see that we remember. And guess what I learned about the SaT? It's for people who can't afford college. That was it's original goal. And now they are forced on everyone and if you don't do well, you not only can't financial aid, you can't go to college even if you CAN afford it!!! What about the people who don't test well?? Our government gets more test oriented everyday. Think about this.. The more tests we take the more people like me (who have the potential to be great workers) can't get into college, which means they can't get jobs, which means that no one has money to spend things on and our country's financial situation goes even further down the toilet then it is. Plus, I heard that people who aren't good students usually have the potential to do greater then school can offer. Albert Einstein ring any Bells? Our Government is a bunch of Baloney. Screw Bush and his "no child left behind". I feel a little more left behind everyday and I'm not even officially retarted. phew okay, I'm done. Well, that took a lot out of me. gtg. I have guess what?? A TEST tomorrow!! A Midterm for English the only class where I have the possibility of doing well on the final besides parenting but that dosn't count. Toodles! Love you and miss you tons!! p.s. You can paste that into my live journal. And incase you don't have the info anymore it's jksmiles0320 and bewitched1. Just with Finals and all I haven't had much time or brain space to think about anything else. |
| Saturday, January 7th, 2006 | | Jan 7 06 ` 7 47 pm |
hi!! my boring saturday.
okay, so I have this weird quirk. I like to run Errends. I think it's fun. So, today when my mom went to get her oil change, I got to come and try to renew my temps at the same time. It ended up to be a WASTE of time. Even though I gave them all my forms and stuff they still made me give them my birth certificate, and me thinking that the dmv was smart, figured that they would have this stuff on file. They didn't and so I have to go back next week. I've gotta tell you that I hate this process. Driving sucks. Anyway, so I went to the grocery store where I found out last night Lisa got a job at. She is the one with the boyfriend. She will be working with someone I didn't know that worked there. Chris. He's cool, but when he put the bags in the car I was so shocked. So, then I went to Panera for a late breakfast, came home watched tv and went on the computer and here I am. Last night was fun though too. Sorry I didn't update, I was haning out with some friends. Well, that's it for now I guess. That 70's show is on and I have recently become addicted to it's reruns. Like the nanny, except the nanny gets repetetive and can be corney. (I admit it.) So,this is my replacement to watch all the time. Cya! Current Mood: busy |
| Thursday, January 5th, 2006 | | Jan 5 06 ` 6 12 pm |
me and math. Sigh
Hi! K, umm hello. Well, As most of you might know, I am terrible at math so today I met with my new tutor. I was told that he was going to be a tennager so when I walked into the library and saw him there I was sure it wasn't him. He had 70'sish glasses,pretty heavy and was wearing one of those grandpa hats. Oh well, he a college kid and he's nice and pretty patient so I'll give him a try. Anyway, I was getting turuored at this library in Beachwood(for those of you out of towners it's a really rich community that I don't live in. All the girls had their cells ringing and their laptps on and typing away. I'm pretty sure that the school provides them. Isn't that insane??? My school can barely afford it's own computers. Actually that's a lie. We do okay now that the levy passed. (don't let Janet tell you ortherwsie Erin!) I just wanted to run back to Brush and hug everyone I saw in the halls for being individual crazy down to earth real people without using daddy's money for everything. well, that's all for now. toodles. Current Mood: accomplished |
| Wednesday, January 4th, 2006 | | Jan 4 06 ` 5 32 pm |
My first entry!!!
Hi everyone! Okay, WEll, school was boring today. I am getting ready for finals and showing off my new northface coat in the process. My 2 friends just got boyfriends and I'm totally happy for them, but a little depressed for myself? Will it ever happen? I'll keep you updated. I just have to get my mind off the one guy I can't have. Other then that not much is going on. I'll talk to yall later! Thanks erin for my Page!! |
| Saturday, December 31st, 2005 | | Dec 31 05 ` 12 47 pm |
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| Saturday, December 24th, 2005 | | Dec 24 05 ` 10 31 pm |
sry this is erin im just tryin to see if this works. |
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